Nex vents

I know it has been a while since I posted anything. Life happened and/or is happening. Of late though, I have been having this urge to just tell my stories. Interestingly, I get very specific stories highlighted in my memory to tell.  Do you know that week/ season between christmas day and New Year's? ..... this story is set in one of the years when I was single and living alone and it was that time of the year. I decide to go to town to do some shopping just for fun. I remember I was just buying comfort food and things that would pick-me-up. I put my small shopping in my bagpack and I was enjoying a stroll in the empty streets of Nairobi city.  I was deep in my thoughts walking towards the stage where I would take a matatu. As I was strolling and enjoying my solitude, I noticed a really posh car. The car seemed to be doing a stroll with me, honking and strolling. I wish my knowledge of cars was that good, I admit I lack in this,  otherwise, I would have given you a better descript

"I love you" A simple three letter sentence that I have noticed I struggle with. I have come to this realization because as my daughter is growing up, I am often overwhelmed by the feeling of love and I want to tell her  that I love her, but immediately I am about to whisper it to her, I break into song. "I love you, you love me we are a happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you won't you say you love me too?" How African and conservative is that? When my husband sees me talking to someone several times he assumes I have become friends with that person. So, when we are talking and he happens to mention, I saw you have been friends with so and so? I am usually appalled and I get defensive, "Who, me? No, we are not friends, we say hi to each other and do small talk but we are not friends?" Let me bring home the connection, this shows I have some major trust issues. It takes forever for me to actually call someone my frie

Are you as confrontational as I am? I am one of those people who tell the bare truth that to an extent it hurts. Dictionary definition of 'Confront' is Confront means either to face a situation that makes you uncomfortable, or to say something to someone about something they've done that bothers you. Rather than letting things go, when people are rude to you you should confront them. Confront derives from the Latin con- "with" and -front "front." Of late, I decided to take some break from the whole confontation thing. why? I cannot explain myself simply in a sentence without giving some incidences. There is this one day, sometime back I had a confrontation with one of my good friends. She is also a confrontation-kinda girl. We exchanged our thoughts and after that even if, we sort of made up, Our friendship has never ever been the same again. Matter of fact as i write this, we barely talk, but i believe if we were to meet, we would be cord

Well, well, well, I am sure we have all had our share of forgiveness to receive and forgiveness to give. I am about to repeat this word forgiveness so many times so you better be ready to live with it. I have been going through this lesson of forgiveness the hard way; the experience way. I am not sure whether it is because my hurt levels have reduced because if you asked me, several years ago I didn't have people who hurt me and grudges that I held. So now, both of the memorable blows have come from people that I considered friends. Next thing, the issue revolved around money. The third thing you have to know about the whole of this story is that I love doing business, so whenever i hear an opportunity that will bring back money and a plus, i take full advantage of the opportunity. In one of the instances,  that's what happened. In the other instance, it was a saving opportunity. A group that involved, of course, friends, rather people who we had known each ot

I have been going through a trying time. why? this trying time is as a result of SIN. yes, I sinned against God and apparently most people who knew about it took it personally. So, I had to go through the consequences of my actions; and I won't water it down, the consequences have been thorough, I still feel like i'm going through them. So, I go to God, repent, re-dedicate my life to Him, I go back on track. I thought eeeerrrmm still thinking it is over, was over, even before I asked it was over according to God's word, that I read and live by. Then, much much later, I ask a friend for a lift. Well, a new neighbor plus a friend I have known for sometime. Let me take you back a little, this friend is in a group of people that I owe money. He had texted me a few days before my lift request asking for the money. When I wanted to ask for the lift, I also put it across that the money is available and ready for disbursement.  Why am i saying the money issue? It

Something has happened to me today morning. For some it may be so cliche for others it may be new. I was walking to work, like I try and do every so often and met this mother and baby waking up by the road side. They looked like they  had  a good sleep, they woke up stretching same as I do when on my bed, and the mother, now awake started checking up on her baby, like i suppose all mothers do or would. I walked past them like all the other pedestrians that i was with.  I was not okay though. I was just thinking about them, and the way they look so content, with  the fact that God has given them life that morning, just like He did  me. I remembered i had some breakfast snacks in my handbag, purposely carried them to give them to someone; specifically,  this guy that I usually meet on my way to work, by the road side and I decided to be giving him something to eat, since everyone gives him coins. FYI ( I like being different). Anyway, I thought this day, this mother and her c