Nex vents

The last time we checked my career status, it is totally different from what it is now. I sat down, went through an overhaul; ok i'm exaggerating, it is not that different but it has some personality now, I must add. Whoever said,  "it is paradoxical, yet true, to say, that the more we know, the more ignorant we become in the absolute sense, for it is only through enlightenment that we become conscious of our limitations. Precisely one of the most gratifying results of intellectual evolution is the continuous opening up of new and greater prospects." I know in my previous post i mentioned the life and the growth; Now as i write this, i just feel like we just  go round and round. The tip of one thing is the starting point of another, there is always something around the corner. (I have totally digressed). Back now to what I really wanted to write about.  As the days go by, a lot changes, some good, some bad, some hurt, some not so much; I have met ne...

Hey Reader, My name is Nekesa, My friends call me Nex and I am coming back to update a blog after eons. I may have changed tones, so my writing has changed of course; and maybe i stopped updating because I rarely vent nowadays; or maybe it took a more subtle route. So in matters catching up...I have had a LIFE. I don't know how life has been described in the dictionary but it should always be an  answer to a greeting. "hey, how have you been?" Answer "life" because trust me, life happens. I have had a loooot of life this while I was away and quiet. I have learnt a lot, I have grown, oh! I am so big (not physically) my person has grown big, my head not so big. Apparently when you  learn much,  your head tends to grow small, Because your perspective changes, you see things in a new light or from a new angle, You realize how wrong you were about right and how right you were about wrong or something in between. You realize that everyone has something going. Y...

Its at times like these when thoughts cannot seem to come to a resolution, actions don't match up with the words spoken and the will of the heart that we decide to just ramble out sentences and maybe when read later, anyone and everyone will try and make out what exactly was going on. There are things that happen as a result of our repressed thoughts and feelings in our hearts; for instance i may go on a shopping spree when i have decided deep down in my heart that i need to treat myself, yet i have not really given thought and budgeted on the cash at hand/wallet; its like a rebellious movement. That's exactly what just happened to me a day ago, so at the moment my thoughts, body and heart still haven't agreed so i still feel scattered all over the place; The body is happy, the thoughts/heart are like welll...?so is that it? is that why you made such a fuss? and it gennerally sucks to think of the future implications of the stupid short-term rebellious movement. You do un...

Is there anything like re-living a situation? coz i know i am, doing exactly that. i am re-living a situation in my mind, a situation i went through two years ago, but now i look at the situation as me, then, it was totally somebody else going through all that, being strong for everyone around, i used to feel the pain but not as much, i would never really be able to explain the calm and sense i got into me during the actual events happening; so point is, i am re-living the whole experience as if it was just yesterday, this time, i am in my own body and mind and it tends to get tricky, weird,..but i am hoping that after this that moment will come, that moment that depicts the change forever in someone's life, a different discourse is taken from then on coz of that moment, routines broken and new ones adapted, new habits formed, character moulding,and the like..Oh, i am looking forward to that BIG moment.i have a very strong hunch, a gut feeling, that after i relive this moment, that...

Nop, that is not the situation i am in, i am sure we would be glad to all put our claws in it; that's the name of a script that i was attempting to put together for it to be staged or screened, maybe; after this awesome, great great online rendevous that has been keeping me on toes, physically and mentally and spiritually. Sincerely, been a rough but good road, very beneficial, i have gained a lot, learned a lot and then fell back from the rendevous like i was falling from some fantasy world but literally and this time it hurt; Good people are good because they've come to wisdom through failure. We get very little wisdom from success, you know. ~William Saroyan: i had to copy paste that quote so that i can end this particular piece, apparently it is still very raw to be written with an objective perspective.   One thing i have come to appreciate though is the adversities we go through, the challenges we come by day by day, what matters is not how wrecked you are by the blo...

As i was walking home, tired after a hard day's work and mulling over the thoughts of an article i had just read about building a pipeline versus being a bucket carrier the rest of your life; i was whispering to myself how i want to build my pipeline, its about time i start building my pipeline... Thoughts of a man i respect and adore popped up; rather his image, his works, and the point at which he is in life crossed my mind; this man called my dad has raised me up from very humble beginnings, you could actually feel when all the resources have been stretched to the limit so that u go to school. This man dropped out of school so that he could take care of his mum whose mental health was not good, he went everywhere with his mum, took care of him until his mum left us(may her soul RIP) Right now, this guy is a Computer Aided design Manager in a company that he has worked for more than 2 decades, where he started as a dustman rather he used to clean the plastic plants set in off...

when someone asks you, 'how are you? the question that is most frequently asked when we meet in a new day, in the streets, in the office, even people who have lived under the same roof  should and do ask each other this question. More often than not, we answer without thinking. In English lessons in class we were taught that when you are asked, 'How are you-fine' is the answer; But are are we really fine? Personally, i answer this question differently, thanks to the many diverse ways of expression of the English language, or Swahili( the one we speak most), 'niko tu', niko salama', 'nakazana tu', 'niko poa taking a day at a time'. Note: i try as much as possible not to lie, and so when this question is asked to me, a flash of what i think is not right passes in my mind's eye and then i consider whether by telling this particular person, 'i am alive but...' then i take it back and as quickly as possible go, 'I'm fine and yo...