Nex vents

Sometimes when i wake up in the morning, i smile and find myself energetic and positive and i feel like that particular day is going to be wonderful; awesome if anything.. then there are other days when i wake up feeling groggy, more sleepy, tired and like i will force myself to leave the house that day.. and i definitely do not look forward to that day. I am sure we all know the secret; positivity and negativity and how it affects you and how one is supposed to put synchronize their energy with the universe so that the universe can in turn reward you with the very best..i know, i know all this.. but there is something called the wheel of fortune; no i don't believe in it, and no am not advocating for it, i just wanted to say that there is a time in life when things start going wrong, and when they come, they are in succession; its as if each action leaves an inheritance and just about everything goes wrong that day. How about when something good happens? i mean everything falls in

Just the other day i received an inbox talking about a high school re-union that had been planned, as i read, i was glad thinking what an awesome idea, i mean its been long and my friends and i had actually suggested that we would want one; so there could never have been such an opportune moment; then as the day was approaching i see people asking the others if and when they will attend, and then it hit me that i am also as undecided as they are and so i joined in the conversation trying to cajole them to think about it in a positive way, and the fun we would have and how they should actually join.. before i sent my contribution for the attendance of the re-union, i actually made a call first to one my friends to confirm her attendance, and I'm just wondering why the phobia? i know one person who thinks the questions are just too much? maybe she would like to go there and not asked how she's doing, does it mean she thinks she's a failure? is it that only successful people

i have made quite a few decisions by taking a coin, tossing it in the air and the side that's up, takes the vote... but these have been cases that just have a yes or a no..now i am faced with this decision that i wish i had a coin with five sides, i mean its that huge; or should i take the pros and cons approach with it? should i involve feelings, oh wait a minute! that's where everything goes wrong? right? what if i go with a business mind approach? or what if i become passive meaning maybe i will get up someday and ask myself, 'what if?' damn, this is really something!!

i remember the days when there was a careless, rich, raucous laughter that used to fill the air often and effortlessly, the days when we used to survive in a bubble; a bubble that contained very few people who mattered. the days when you didn't have to wear make-up to cover up the puffy eyes that cried a lot at night, the days when you never strained to smile to anyone who deserved a smile because there was nothing to hide; those days when you don't haveto come up with small talk to avoid talking about the real issues; what's bothering you. the days when you kneel to pray and it flows because you don't have so many sins to think about and ask for forgiveness for, the heart and mind were clearer and lighter...

They say the experiences we go through are supposed to enhance character. we, as human beings are supposed to learn from them. but do we? trust you me when i tell you maybe i am among the people that make the same mistake twice. I end up asking myself is it because i don't see it coming or is it because i just didn't learn from the previous experience such that fate has it repeated so that i may, if anything, just learn from it. There is this particular incidence, (allow me to make a filthy comparison) i would like to see it as passing through a lane; one of these hideous, dark lanes that we got. Say i pass there almost everyday and i step on human waste on the same spot, the next day i pas there again and damn! i step on it again. The punishment is spending the rest of the day with a pungent smell on me simply because i did not learn either to avoid the human waste or avoid the lane all together. I say some human beings will pass there and relate it to their friends, and e